You can have all the intellegence in the world, but if you don't know who you are and what you're capable of, then your opportunities will go to waste. I was a high achiever, a child who was used to being successful in school and sports, and I worked my butt off. While other students in my AP History class could score an A+ on their critical writing paper and play sports year-round without their grades suffering, I was 17, working 25 hours a week, carrying a full college-prep course load and was slowly losing my mind because I never thought I was good enough.
My childhood in no way shape or form was a normal one. Growing up in metro Detroit in the 90s was a peaceful time and I got all the "excitement" I needed at home. My mother is a paranoid schizophrenic and life at home was a war zone, where I was always in fear of saying or doing the wrong thing, so as to not upset her. Needless to say, I was beast at staying invisable and telling people exactly what they wanted to hear weather or not it was what I wanted or not.
This may have served me well at home, but in my adult life - especially in my profesional life - the results were not so great. After lots of counseling and prayer, I finally understood that if I wanted to be anything in life, I had to drop the need to please others and ask for what I needed - even if it made others and myself uncomfortable.
It's not easy, but I ask for what I need for now and I know that in order for me to achieve my dreams, I've got to believe in myself, take more deep breaths, and just go for it.
I can't wait for what the rest of the year holds for me and I look forward to getting - and staying out of my own damn way.